It’s that time of the year where I’m starting to feel stressed and concerned, anxious and nervous.
School starts soon. Soon as in my first day is tomorrow. And with it, my sanity disappears.
There’s a lot of grey area in my life. Unknowns. Not just with school but other things as well.
But I don’t want to worry. I’ve spent twenty years of my life worrying. That’s a hyperbolic statement obviously. I’m sure I didn’t care as much as a kid. I want to go back to being eight years old where my biggest concern was what I wanted to watch on TV after school.
I hope to turn my nervousness into excitement.
I’m trying to tell myself that everything will be fine because ultimately, life works out. Not always the way I intended or expected, but things have a funny way of turning out all right.
I think my problem is a tendency to second guess myself and my abilities. I underestimate what I’m able to do, what I’m capable of.
I’m an ambitious person by nature, which leads to more stress in my day to day life.
I’m writing right now because I’m too stressed to do anything else. And working with words usually helps me relax.
At first, it might seem counter-intuitive to write about your problems because you think about them more. But for me working through things lends me perspective. Often times I realize what I worry about will never come to pass because the odds of it happening are highly unlikely.
This post is all over the place. I know. It’s a reflection of my life right now.
I consider myself a clean, neat person who likes to be organized. I want to be on top of things. I want to be in charge, not let things take charge of me.
I’ll feel better once school starts, and I have a better feel for this semester. Besides, I’ve survived summer to school transitions in the past. I’ll survive this one.
I hope you’ll bear with me as I do my best to keep up with everything.
As much as I’d love to publish a post every day, I might miss a few every now and then. Don’t worry I’m human. I need days off just like everyone else too.