It seems as though thinking about taking a break from blogging is becoming a trend for me. A few times every year I consider going away on an extended hiatus. More often than not, I weather the storm and ride things out. Interestingly, when I think about not blogging for a few days or weeks even, I’m inspired to blog more.
That being said I didn’t post yesterday. I had a massive headache and couldn’t function like abnormal human being. So I took some medicine before trying to sleep it off. I’m feeling much better if you’re wondering, which you probably weren’t.
Whenever I entertain the idea of skipping a day or twenty, it’s mainly because I feel busy. That’s not my biggest concern this month.
To be honest, I haven’t been too motivated or excited about blogging as of late. I figured taking a few days off might help.
But if there’s one thing I am it’s stubborn. I don’t like the idea of not publishing a post every day. I almost forced my drugged up self to blog yesterday until I thought better of it.
Regardless of what’s going on in my personal life, I want to put in a little bit of work as often as possible.
I won’t give up this gig anytime soon. I hope I can figure everything out. I just know what I’m doing now doesn’t feel right.
Maybe my high expectation syndrome is rearing its ugly head.
I also wouldn’t go say far as to say I’m burnt out. At least not from blogging.
I like to think I’m not bored either.
I’m just set in my ways. So stubborn in how I operate that when things turn out differently, a part of me isn’t happy with the result.
It’s like I have this specific but vague vision of what this blog should be and how my posts need to look. Otherwise, I’m shaking both of my fists at myself.
Nevertheless, the more I blog, the more I realize how little I enjoy editing, especially in comparison to writing. I’ve been procrastinating proofreading and publishing. This issue has contributed to how I’ve been feeling lately.
As a teenager, I used to manage my time better. All that went out the window way too soon.
Don’t ever believe someone who tells you blogging is easy.