Writing is hard. On one hand, it helps. On the other, writing hurts. It’s therapeutic at times. But some days when I pick up a pen, I return to a difficult past.
On bad writing days, I wonder why I’m wasting my time. On better ones, I tell myself there is nothing else I’d rather be doing.
Over the summer, I actually took a break from creative writing. I thought it was much needed.
I fell in love with writing because it allowed me to reclaim my happiness. Then again, writing can be painful too.
I recall the past when I write, only to realize it’s gone. I don’t have yesterday anymore. I only have today.
For better or worse, I will write. I’m never going to let anyone stop me.
Writing gives me the chance to start again. I have to make a conscious effort to start anew. Easier said than done but it must be done. Even if I spend the rest of my life trying, at least I can die knowing that I tried. I made an effort. I didn’t quit, give up. I won’t take the easy way out. That’s not fair to myself. Easy isn’t always better.
Herminia Chow 
Hi, Herminia!
I think writing is often like exercise – do it or lose it! Some people think writers are fueled by uncommon inspiration. But if we’re not at our desks/wherever with pen to paper (or whatever), we won’t be there for the uncommon inspirational bits. Easier said than done, I know…..sigh.
Also, for me, it isn’t always bad when the (unpleasant) past comes up. In some ways, I always feel as though my past plus my dreams for the future are informing what I write. Sometimes the past is heavy to bear, and I have to trust that my body is reminding me of something because it’s important. I hear you saying it isn’t a piece of cake, being a writer. I also hear you saying you’re going to keep baking cakes, no matter what! 🙂
Elouise
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Agreed. That’s why I try to exercise and write as much as possible. I know what you mean. Sometimes we just have to show up. At the gym. At our desk.
Mhm, that’s true. The past doesn’t dictate the future, but it does inform who we are in the present. My thoughts as well. Aha exactly. Also, I try to remind myself it’s not always about how the cake turns out. As long as I enjoy the process of baking, that’s enough.
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Yes! We’re doing it (writing) for ourselves no matter how it turns out. I need to keep pondering this daily…..
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Here’s to us! Keep writing and blogging. 🙂
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This is actually very accurate. Writing is super hard and even though it helps a lot, there are some times when it feels like it’s worse. I love writing things down to help myself get over them. But then when I go into my journal and look back at past entries I get sad because I remember some dark times I was in. It helps in the moment though and sometimes you just have to use your own judgement in what’s best to help you at that time.
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My thoughts exactly. Been there, done that. It’s hard and sometimes writing hurts. But lying or denying what happened will hurt even more in the long run. Mhm, sometimes we have to decide for ourselves whether we write or whether we wait.
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