University is great until I remember that grades are a thing.
Then again, either I did well and life goes on or I didn’t do well and life goes on.
Part of the reason why I want to graduate and get a job is because I don’t want to be graded anymore. I know grades are just grades. They don’t dictate my future. They aren’t a measure of my self-worth. But my ego has a mind of its own.
For my own sanity, I don’t obsessively check my grades. In first year, I focussed on doing work and the results worked themselves out.
I’ve done well before. There’s no reason why I can’t do well now.
To be completely honest, my GPA has dropped every year. It’s okay though. I’ve made peace with that.
In the past, I would check many of my grades all at once. That way, I wouldn’t get too hung up over one bad mark.
As long as I pass every class, I can graduate on time. That’s the main goal.
I keep getting emails about updated grades on my final essays and exams. A part of me wants to look at my grades but another part doesn’t. I haven’t worked up the courage to check any of them yet.