School

An Honest Account Of My University Experience

In September 2015, I embarked on my university journey.

In high school, people told me my grades would drop. And naïve Herminia believed them. So I prepared myself to not do nearly as well. Somehow I did.

During first year, I didn’t think too much about my GPA. I thought about doing the work and being early to everything.

Come the fall of 2016, I learned that I won two academic scholarships.

Instead of thinking I was stupid, I felt somewhat smart.

In second year, I spent less time studying and more time living. My grades were a little all over the place as a result. I remember countless conversations with my best friend about how terrible I was doing. I joked about dropping out.

So I vowed to do better in third year. My fall semester went smoothly. I had great classes, good professors. I liked my grades. I lived a lot. If I could relive those four months again, I would.

2018 arrived. Second semester in the winter started off just fine. No problem. Smooth sailing. Until February when I got hit by a car while walking home from school.

It took more than a month to recover physically. I’m not sure I’ll ever recover mentally. I’m doing well these days.

I never wanted to make excuses. I didn’t ask for an extension on any assignments.

My grades dropped. But I took care of myself. Being forced to listen to my body made me a better human being.

Regardless of my GPA when all is said and done, I’m proud. I learned to listen to that tiny voice in my head, to the body I used to neglect. That matters more than any number on a piece of paper.

Personal Reflection

I Don’t Know What I Want To Do After University

In September, I’m going into my fourth year of university. And I can’t stop stressing about what I want to do once I graduate.

When people ask me, I tell them I don’t know. I have no idea.

Maybe it’ll help to narrow down my options by eliminating things I don’t want to do.

I don’t want to do more university. I’d prefer sitting in an office than siting in a lecture hall.

I don’t want to travel the world. I do eventually, but I’m not in a position to right out of school. Even if I do travel, it won’t be too far or too long.

I don’t want to take a gap year. I understand other people’s reasoning for doing so. But I don’t have a good reason to take 12 months off. I’ve also been fortunate enough to have 4 months of summer that more or less give me a break from school.

Now to figure out what I want to do.

I want to work. I want to write and blog. Creating content is still so much fun.

I want to learn. As flawed as the school system is, I’ve learned a lot from it. Kindergarten to high school to university. I love learning on my own through reading and researching as well.

I want to grow. To be honest, sometimes I feel stuck. I don’t want to stay in one place. I dislike being stagnant. I hate regressing. I hope to improve. To get better, not worse. When I see myself growing, I feel a sense of satisfaction.

Regardless of what does or doesn’t happen post-grad, I aspire to be better.

Writing

Don’t Tell Other People’s Stories; Tell Your Own

Stories are special because we’re able to share our lived experiences with others.

If people want to tell their story, they will. Listen because you never know what you might learn.

Almost any experience can be a story. It’s all a matter of perspective.

Humans are storytellers. But storytelling is an art in and of itself. So tell the story you’re meant to tell. Tell it the only way you know how.

You’re different from everybody who came before you. Embrace your differences.

Write the book you want to read. Don’t write someone else’s story.

School

Education, Ego, Expectation

We’ve reached that point in the semester where professors start crushing my fragile ego.

What a time to be alive.

But I’ll manage somehow.

I still don’t know how I did so well in my first year. Maybe it’s because I wasn’t as jaded. I’m much more cynical now as well. Or maybe it’s because I actually read the assigned articles and books.

Second year was an inconsistent one. I was all over the place with my grades. I did better in some courses than others, which makes sense. But the negativity bias gets me every time. So I tend to focus on all the bad marks rather than the good ones.

I’m not sure how the rest of this year will play out, but if I’m failing miserably and drowning in school work, you’ll hear all about it.

As someone who prioritizes my passions among other things, I’m still content with where I stand right now. Although if you give me another month, I might change my mind. I’m human after all.

Let’s talk about opportunity cost, shall we? I’m aware the time I spend dancing every day could be spent studying. But I choose to dance. And that isn’t going to change even if I’m not getting a 4.0 GPA.

Many things matter more to me than my grades. My health. My happiness.

Because I have high expectations for myself, I’m not sure I’ll ever be happy with any mark. Oh, a 90? That’s not a 95, is it? An A-? Why not an A+?

Maybe I should never check my grades ever again. I’m fairly confident I won’t fail anything. I don’t have to worry about that. If I did, I’d be a complete wreck.

Ignorance is bliss. What you don’t know can’t hurt you.

Or perhaps I should check all my grades and have my ego destroyed every single time.

Either way, I don’t benefit. You just can’t win as a student, can you?

All this being said, I love learning. I’m grateful to be able to get an education. I hope I never take that for granted.

I’m fortunate. I’m lucky. I can’t imagine not being able to go to school. I can’t imagine not knowing how to read or write. And my heart breaks for everyone out there who aren’t in a position to learn.

I still think I’ll jump for joy and do cartwheels around my house when I graduate in 2019. I can’t wait. I’m excited to experience life after school.

There’s so much I want to do. And turning down full-time job offers because I’m a full-time student isn’t something I want to do my whole life.

For now, I’ll try to enjoy the good things about being a student and embrace the bad.

Blogging

Never Have I Ever | Blogging Edition

Never have I ever reblogged a post.

In my defense, I want this blog to be purely my own content.

Never have I ever let someone else publish a post on my blog.

Maybe in the future this will change. But I do like having complete control.

Never have I ever gone two days without posting.

I’ve missed a few days, but I always post the day following one where I didn’t.

Never have I ever published more than two posts a day.

I could except the quality of those posts would be horrendous. So I don’t.

Never have I ever hated any part of this experience.

Because if I did, I would have stopped a long time ago.

Thank you for making my time here that much more enjoyable.

Personal Reflection

Hire Me

Hire MePlease.

Maybe I should have titled this post “Pay Me” instead.

Pay me, please.

Trying to find a job isn’t easy.

Especially when you’re picky like me.

Even more so when you have zero job experience.

And not much else to show for.

*cough* 

*cough*

*cough*

Is someone sick? 

Just sick of school. 

Reading

Why You Should Buy Books

Why spend your hard earned cash on the commodity known as books?

Because you should buy experiences. Not products. Not objects. Not things.

So never feel guilty for buying a book. You’re buying an experience. An experience you’ll never get anywhere else.

Life boils down to experiences. Yours. Not someone else’s.

It’s simple, really.

Buy experiences. Write experiences. Experience experiences.

Blogging

Blogging Resolutions 2016

I made three blogging resolutions for 2015. I figured I’d do the same for 2016.

This year is going to be the year for my blog. I feel it in my bones. I wish the same for you.

Above all else I will work my hardest to create the best content I possibly can.

Maybe my blogging resolutions will inspire you to make your own. If that isn’t the case, stick around for my reading and writing resolutions.

  • I’m aiming to publish 350 posts this year.
  • I want to write 10 articles for other blogs or sites.
  • I hope to enjoy every moment and learn from every experience.

Have you thought about your blogging resolutions yet?

Happy new year! All the best for you and your blog.