University is great until I remember that grades are a thing.
Then again, either I did well and life goes on or I didn’t do well and life goes on.
Part of the reason why I want to graduate and get a job is because I don’t want to be graded anymore. I know grades are just grades. They don’t dictate my future. They aren’t a measure of my self-worth. But my ego has a mind of its own.
For my own sanity, I don’t obsessively check my grades. In first year, I focussed on doing work and the results worked themselves out.
I’ve done well before. There’s no reason why I can’t do well now.
To be completely honest, my GPA has dropped every year. It’s okay though. I’ve made peace with that.
In the past, I would check many of my grades all at once. That way, I wouldn’t get too hung up over one bad mark.
As long as I pass every class, I can graduate on time. That’s the main goal.
I keep getting emails about updated grades on my final essays and exams. A part of me wants to look at my grades but another part doesn’t. I haven’t worked up the courage to check any of them yet.
Today, I wrote my last exam for the fall semester. I can’t believe I only have one more semester of university left.
Classes start up again in January, and even though I’m excited, I feel nervous.
Exams finish in April. my graduation ceremony is in June.
After I graduate, I want to work and write.
I’m looking forward to what’s next. I feel like I’m already embarking on a new chapter in my life.
I don’t want to jump too far ahead because anything can happen between now and next year. But that doesn’t stop me from worrying about post-grad.
As much as I love blogging, I might publish less in the future. I’ve been trying to post every day in December, but I’m not sure what 2019 will bring. It’s going to be a year full of change.
I don’t see myself going back to university, at least not anytime soon. So I will try to pursue my dreams and see where life takes me.
I have every intention to keep learning and improving even after I finish school and start work. My goal is to become a better human being with each passing day.
I feel like I’ve done everything I wanted to achieve in school. I just need to graduate university in 2019, which I’m on track to do.
I’ve already declared my intent to graduate, and that fact is finally starting to sink in.
After I graduate next year, I plan to work. I will work hard.
I have all these ideas and plans, dreams and goals. I can’t wait to make them happen.
I love telling stories, so I hope I never stop.
I know my career is just getting started, so I have plenty of time. Still, I want to do everything right now.
Looking back, I’ve come a long way. Once upon a time, I entered the public school system not knowing a word of English. Then I went on to win an English award at my elementary school graduation. I even won writing scholarships in university as well.
I’ve accomplished a lot in academia, and I’m proud of my achievements. But I’m ready to move on to the next chapter of my life.
I often need to remind myself that I don’t have to do everything. Besides, I only have 24 hours in a day like everyone else.
There’s only so much I can do. Too bad I’m super stubborn. Even during the school year, I still try to do what I did over the summer.
I’m doing my best, and that’s all I can do. I strive for balance. It’s tough though. But I like my lifestyle. I have what I need. Hopefully, I can sustain my way of life for a long time.
As much as I love the idea of daily habits, I can’t do all of them some days. Which is why I should prioritize. Depending on the circumstances, I might put one thing before another.
I also can’t wait to graduate. Most likely, I will find work afterwards. Maybe in the future, I’ll return to university, but as of right now, I’m ready to begin my career.
I’ve done a lot in school. I want to do a lot in the real world too.
I have no idea what I’ll be doing in a few months. Or where I’ll be for that matter.
One day, I hope to look back and think my hard work paid off. Until then I’ll tell myself I don’t have to do everything. It’s okay to focus on a few things at a time.
I don’t know what I’m doing post-grad. It makes me anxious just thinking about it. But everyone and their dogs love to ask, “what are you going to do after graduation?”
I keep changing my mind. I can’t decide. Still, I’ll try to summarize my goals for 2019 in a nutshell.
My last semester starts in January and ends in April. That’s crazy. I’m so close to being done.
The graduation ceremony is in June. I wouldn’t miss that for the world.
Afterwards, I’ll probably work. I have no idea what or where. Regardless of my day job, I still plan to blog and write as much as possible next year.
I’ve never spent entire days or an extended period of time working on my own creative projects. Perhaps one day, I can get to a point where that’s possible.
On my hand, I feel like I need to work all the time. On the other, I also need to live my life. I’ll figure things out.
If I want to go back to school, I will. If not, I can find a job. I’d love to travel too, see more of the world.
Whatever I end up doing, I will do my best. And whatever I end up not doing is probably for the better.
In September, I’m going into my fourth year of university. And I can’t stop stressing about what I want to do once I graduate.
When people ask me, I tell them I don’t know. I have no idea.
Maybe it’ll help to narrow down my options by eliminating things I don’t want to do.
I don’t want to do more university. I’d prefer sitting in an office than siting in a lecture hall.
I don’t want to travel the world. I do eventually, but I’m not in a position to right out of school. Even if I do travel, it won’t be too far or too long.
I don’t want to take a gap year. I understand other people’s reasoning for doing so. But I don’t have a good reason to take 12 months off. I’ve also been fortunate enough to have 4 months of summer that more or less give me a break from school.
Now to figure out what I want to do.
I want to work. I want to write and blog. Creating content is still so much fun.
I want to learn. As flawed as the school system is, I’ve learned a lot from it. Kindergarten to high school to university. I love learning on my own through reading and researching as well.
I want to grow. To be honest, sometimes I feel stuck. I don’t want to stay in one place. I dislike being stagnant. I hate regressing. I hope to improve. To get better, not worse. When I see myself growing, I feel a sense of satisfaction.
Regardless of what does or doesn’t happen post-grad, I aspire to be better.
A quick disclaimer before I proceed. I apologize for not replying that quickly today. It’s been a busy day. Also try to forgive the horrendous writing that follows.
My high school graduation finished not too long ago. This justifies the late replying and bad writing, right?
I survived four years of high school. And I lived to tell the tale. I’m done. Finally.
Off to university in September.
Even more crazy than graduating is the fact that my new Tumblr blog, aspiringreader22, is up and running.
Yes, it only has one post. And I may continue to make changes until I’m truly satisfied with how the blog looks, but feel free to follow my baby. Watch it grow into something beautiful.
Let me take this opportunity to extend a warm welcome to all readers and non-readers alike. Check it out even if you don’t have a Tumblr account for reader problems. Of course, feel free to ask me anything.
Don’t be shy. I don’t bite. Or do I? Actually, I used to bite my cousin. Long story. Let me save that for another time.
While we’re still on the topic of Tumblr and blogs, follow my main one at aspiringwriter22 if you haven’t already. It’s been nearly a year of my posting writer problems. I’ve sort of started using blogging milestones as a way to keep track of time. Tell me I’m not the only person who does this.
Thanks once again for the incredible support.