At any given time, I have so many doubts and concerns. A lot of questions and reservations. That’s why some days I hold back. I play it safe.
I need to live. After all, I only get one life.
But it’s okay to take a break here and there. I’m trying to come to terms with the fact I can’t do everything every day.
I like my lifestyle. I like my life. It’s messy. At times, it’s downright ugly. Still, I’m happy and grateful right now.
I can’t imagine living a different life. I realize how lucky I am. I’m able to read, write, blog. I never want to take those things for granted.
Sometimes I think I’m the least understanding person when it comes to my own predicament. I don’t understand why I can’t read 50 pages every single day. I don’t understand why I can’t write 2,000 words all the time. I’m so hard on myself when I fall short.
I need to remember that life isn’t a destination. It’s a journey. Life isn’t about the numbers. It’s about the process.
Besides, I didn’t fall in love with my hobbies because of arbitrary numbers. I fell in love because they made me feel like I was floating on clouds.
At the end of the day, I want to enjoy the little things. So I will do my best to live my own life. I won’t live someone else’s.
I guess I thought writing a blog post about not being on my blogging game was a good idea. And now I’m realizing how bad of an idea it is.
I just haven’t been blogging like I used to.
I also haven’t been in the best place as of late.
Life’s hard. Being a blogger is hard. But being a blogger makes life less hard in a way. Blogging has helped me get through some of the toughest times in my life. I have no doubt this blog and the community will continue to be there for me.
That’s something I will always be grateful for.
So thank you for reading and listening. Thanks so much for reaching out and responding or replying. Thank you for putting up with my presence as well as accepting my absence. I appreciate it.
I tend to say keep writing or blogging a lot. But today I want to end with…
I haven’t forgotten about the significance of today.
Each time November 11th rolls around, I always think about how lucky and grateful I am.
But I remember writing an unpublished article a while back titled “In December, Do We Still Remember?”
To summarize it, I reflected on how most people tend to remember the heroes who fought for them only once a year. We should remember all the time. We certainly shouldn’t just be reminded to when we see a red poppy pinned to someone’s jacket.
So “this year and subsequent years afterwards, strive to keep the memory alive year-round.”
I’m not wishing for more followers or views or likes or comments, but they are always welcome. I am grateful for every single one.
Besides I don’t blog because I want fame or fortune. I just wish to continue blogging as frequently as I can. Even though I said I’d be blogging less, I’m doing my best to not stay true to my word. Until November.
Naturally I gravitate towards doing what I love in order to put off what I don’t.
That’s why I blog rather than complete schoolwork.
And I hope you do the same so I’m able to stalk you.
I mean I want you to blog. Not avoid work or neglect school. I don’t condone that.
It goes without saying that this blog keeps me sane and happy. Or maybe I should say I am not insane and unhappy because I am fortunate enough to be a blogger. What’s more, I’m grateful to have such incredible bloggers to interact with. Escaping from the real world from time to time contributes to my sanity.
Recently I hurt my wrist by doing a back bend, an injury I never saw coming to be honest. Three days ago, I sprained my right wrist after dance so now I have to wear a brace similar to the ones weightlifters wear. Even though I’m in an immense amount of pain, I still manage to smile. The silver lining in this situation is I can still do the one thing I love to do. I can still hold a pencil. I can write words on a piece of paper. I am able to type on the computer. I am able to pen a story and write a blog entry. For that I am grateful. So I came up with an idea. I wanted to list off a few of the many things I am grateful for even though some of this doesn’t exactly pertain to writing.
I am still able to write and blog. If I couldn’t, you wouldn’t be reading this post right now.
I have amazing friends and a great family, an extremely caring and incredibly supporting bunch.
I am glad that my doctor has been so honest with me about everything. It is quite satisfying to know that I won’t be in pain forever. The doctor says my wrist should heal in six weeks. I’ll hold him to his word.
This one may make me sound delusional but I am grateful for all the naysayers, the haters, and anyone who said I could never do this. Because of you I am stronger, better, and happier.
I give thanks to all the authors, writers, bloggers, poets, novelists, and anyone else I may have missed for being an inspiration to me.
I am indebted to all my readers, followers, and fans that follow this blog along with my journey and growth as a writer. Thank you!