Personal Reflection

Thinking About The Future

I can’t stop thinking about the future. More like worrying about the future.

I don’t feel ready for the real world. I have no idea what I’m doing now, much less what I’ll be doing after I graduate.

I thought everything would fall into place during my time in university. But the older I get, the less sure I am of anything.

I don’t intend to do more school. It doesn’t feel like the right path for me. I hope to work and write.

There’s a lot I want to do before I die. I’ll try to work full-time while pursuing my passions on the side.

Balancing everything is going to be tricky though. Ultimately, I need to decide what’s important to me.

I’ll make time, make sacrifices.

First things first, I should stop worrying and start working.

Even though money isn’t my biggest priority, it’d be nice to make enough to live a lifestyle I love.

Personal Reflection

21 Goals For 21 Year Old Me

  1. Read good books.
  2. Write a novel.
  3. Dance like no one is watching.
  4. Blog often.
  5. Drive better.
  6. Forgive yourself.
  7. Study smart.
  8. Go somewhere you’ve never been before.
  9. Make a friend.
  10. Save up money for a laptop.
  11. Improve my middle split.
  12. Stengthen my core.
  13. Walk to places when possible.
  14. Be kind to others.
  15. Help a stranger.
  16. Learn Spanish.
  17. Journal at night.
  18. Bake more.
  19. Get enough sleep.
  20. Graduate university.
  21. Love yourself.

The Evolution Of This Blog

In 2013, I was a naive fifteen year old on WordPress.

Today, I’m so happy I went out on a limb one evening and started this blog.

Becoming a blogger has made me more keen to learn. As a result, I now have more interests than ever before.

Along the way, I’ve felt the need to stick with the status-quo. But I want to push the envelope, challenge myself, and improve. I can’t improve if I don’t move. That’s my motto literally and figuratively.

I read tons of advice about how to blog. But to be honest, I like learning what works and what doesn’t on my own.

This blog will continue to evolve as I grow and change. It may not always seem like it, but I’m doing my best. I know you are too.

There are so many posts I want to write, projects I want to tackle. I’m a little limited in terms of time, money, etc. That being said, I try to take baby steps every day.

More than anything, I hope the next five years will bring more progress.

I’m not perfect. I never will be. My goal isn’t perfection. It’s consistent practice.

As always, thank you for being part of my evolution as a blogger and as a human being.

Personal Reflection

Making Money As A Writer And Blogger

As an overworked and underpaid (sometimes not paid at all) student writer, I have a terrible relationship with money. For me, it induces a great deal of anxiety.

Even though I’m still a dependent, I get so stressed over finances. Imagine when I’m an adult trying to support myself.

As of late, I haven’t purchased anything I don’t need. Which isn’t necessarily a bad thing.

I used to think I was frugal. Then I figured I’m just cheap.

To be honest, I haven’t made much money writing or blogging. That’s why I’m worried I’ll never make enough to do them full-time.

After graduation, I hope to get a job I like. Maybe one day I’ll make a living doing what I love.

I’m sure everyone and their dog would like to make more money. I want to make enough to survive.

I wish I could move past worrying about spending as little as possible or saving as much as I can. Instead, I want to focus on doing what’s best. Doing what I want to do. Problem being, I don’t know what I want to do. And even if I did, there’s a part of me that feels like I’m not good enough to do anything.

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Doing What You Love Because You Love Doing It

I tend to fall in love with something and then turn the thing into work.

But it’s important to love what you do.

I start doing for the wrong reasons. And then my passions stop being enjoyable.

For me, I write not for the sake of writing but because I love the creative process. So even if I never make it as a writer, I’ll still spend my life working away on a story or twenty thousand.

Same goes for blogging. Every time I think about my passions, I realize I’ve stuck with them because I don’t need external rewards to motivate me to keep going.

It’s enough that I enjoy creating characters, sharing stories, visiting worlds.

I hope I get to do what I love for the rest of my life.

At the very least, I know what I don’t love. I try to avoid the stuff I despise as much as possible.

I’ve been thinking about how I’ll make money doing what I love, how I’ll make a living.

A part of me believes if you work hard and you do what you’re doing out of love, you can’t really go wrong.

Life’s too short, but it’s also too long if you don’t enjoy your time on earth.

Don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re going to make mistakes just like everybody else. That’s okay. You’re going to be all right.

Every storm ends. Every moment passes. Cherish what you have. Remember to laugh. Don’t forget to love. Keep going even when you think you can’t. Good luck. Believe in yourself and your abilities. It’s the least you can do.

Personal Reflection

Making Money Doing What You Love

I don’t have a problem with people making money doing what they love. Says the girl who isn’t.

I hope I get to that point someday though.

It’s easier said than done, of course. Every time I think about making money, I get all sad. Maybe because I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to support myself while pursuing my passions.

I remind myself of the days I first started writing and blogging when I didn’t turn a profit whatsoever. When I was beyond excited to create every day because I enjoyed the creative process.

I’ve been worrying a lot over my future. If I don’t do more schooling after graduation, I’ll need to get a job.

I joke to my friends that I’m unemployable. I want to work for myself as well.

I feel conflicted. Unsurprisingly, I don’t enjoy feeling this way.

I’m not sure how I’ll earn enough to pay my way through life, however long mine lasts. The cost of everything seems to go up all the time.

Now that I’ve obsessed over this, I feel my problem isn’t how much I make, but whether I’ll have the freedom to do what I love. I don’t need to be rich to be happy. Yet I still need enough time and money to go after my dreams. Being well off can help create a bit of freedom or flexibility for the sake of my sanity.

Obviously, I don’t want my lifestyle to change for the worse.

The world is a big, bad place. I’ve yet to find my place in it. I hope I can navigate through and not seem utterly lost at every turn.

What a fun post to publish on Christmas Eve. Happy holidays!


What You Should Know About Blogging

It’s not for everyone. If it was then everyone would be a blogger.

People quit. When you want to quit, remember why you started. Why you made a blog in the first place.

It’s tempting to start a project and abandon it. Creative individuals have tons of ideas and not enough time to pursue them all. Try to finish what you start. Finish your poems and stories. Finish your blog posts.

Bloggers have goals. Hold onto yours. Make goals. Meet them.

Everyone starts with a fire inside. Keep it alive. Make sure the flames burn brighter and hotter with each passing day.

    Some days you’ll hate being a blogger. Wonder why you even started a blog. Question your entire existence. Other days you’ll love every second of it.

    Bad days happen.

    Blogging isn’t easy. But anything worth doing never is. It’s hard. It’s challenging. 

    It hurts.

    Very bad days happen too.

    All your work is worth it. Hard work pays off. Not always immediately but eventually.

    Pay your dues. And people might start paying you. But don’t blog solely for the money. If you’re looking to get rich quickly and easily, look elsewhere. There are millions of other ways to make a lot of money in a short period of time.

    Life happens. Forgive yourself. Don’t forget about yourself. Your beliefs and values.

    Also, blog posts don’t write themselves.


    What Readers Need

    Readers don’t need much. They just need more… 

    • money
    • books
    • time
    • space
    • money

    I could really do with more money. Then again, doesn’t everybody?