I’ve decided to cut back on blogging. I could never give it up completely, and I don’t want to take an extended break either. Which is why for now at least, I plan to publish less often.
There isn’t just one reason why. It’s a combination of many factors.
To be honest, I haven’t been as excited about my content lately, and I hate the idea of forcing myself to put out posts I’m not proud of.
When I first started blogging, I made it my goal to publish every day. Right now however, this blog isn’t my biggest priority.
I like to believe I’m embarking on a different chapter of my journey. Hopefully, I’ll be a better blogger in the months to come.
I’m not going anywhere. I’ll still be here, just not as often. I’ve lost my way, so I need some time to find myself again. Maybe down the line, I’ll look back and think this was the best decision I ever made.
These days, I feel pulled in every direction. I have conflicting voices in my head that contradict each other.
Blogging is hard. I’ve had fun, but it isn’t easy.
I still love blogging with my whole heart. Besides, I wouldn’t be who I am today without all of you. So thanks for putting up with me.
So I haven’t been blogging as much lately.
Sometimes, I can’t seem to push the publish button. I’m too hard on myself. In some ways, I expect perfection even though nothing will ever be perfect, especially these short, informal, personal blog posts.
My creativity has left me these days. I realize I’m not operating on an optimal level because I don’t get enough sleep.
I hope this phase ends sooner rather than later. I don’t know how other bloggers do it. I have no idea how I’ve managed for the past five years.
I’m not giving up, but going forward, I’ll be blogging less.
As much as I want to make all my hobbies a priority, this blog isn’t the biggest one right now.
I’m coming to terms with the fact I can’t do everything, but I can do a few things well.
Blogging is not easy. It’s hard. And life happens. That said, I’ll try to enjoy the process and embrace the challenges.
I don’t. But I try my best.
For me, I prioritize what’s urgent. I also prioritize what’s important. Well, I attempt to anyway.
Obviously, I care about my own health and happiness. Anything that contributes to either is a priority.
I like fun too. Because all work and no play would make me a dull girl.
Sometimes I don’t want to think. Instead, I let myself relax and recharge.
I manage my time because I want enough hours to do some of the things I enjoy. But making time isn’t always easy.
If you’re wondering, I don’t have a daily word count goal. Even during NaNoWriMo, I focus my attention on getting the story written. Some days I’m below the average number of words, other days I meet the target, and on better days I surpass it.
Others writers swear by meeting a set word count every day. I’m not sure I want one.
Sure, it might make me more productive. On the other hand, if the target was set too high, I’d drive myself insane trying to hit it.
For now at least, meeting a daily word count goal isn’t my top priority.
Is it bad that my priorities are out of whack?
For one, dancing and blogging are more important to me than school and homework.
I know. I know. I know.
I’ve had people tell me school should come first.
Blah, blah, blah.
But as much as I try to change my ways, I can’t help it.
I dance, check my email, and blog before I open my bag, take out my binders, and start doing whatever my teachers assigned.
This doesn’t mean I’m failing or not doing well. Actually it’s quite the opposite.
Maybe that’s why I refuse to re-evaluate my priorities.
I thought it would be interesting to evaluate my life priorities at this point in time. I am in grade eleven, I am sixteen, and I am contemplating my plans for post-secondary. Also, the school year is almost over. YAY!
Anyhow, the timing is just right for this post.
I need more sleep. I crave good sleep. I want better sleep. So yes it’s definitely a huge priority.
On the bright side, I don’t care too much about school. Unfortunately, I still care. But let’s face it, who puts schoolwork before anything else? Not this girl.
This is more of a priority than schoolwork, that’s for sure. Would I sacrifice sleep for writing? You should know my answer to the previous question.
I’m not sure if I could survive a day without dancing. If anything terrible happened to me, you know it’s because I am dance deprived.
Listening to music has gotten me through a lot. And it’s easy to make time for music unlike time-consuming matters like homework.
Now you know why my average is only a 93. You also know why I don’t reply to comments at night. And for future reference you’ll know that if I disappeared off the face of this Earth, it’s because I went too long without dancing.
I can’t be in two places at once.
There is only so much I can do in one day.
There is only so much a girl can accomplish in 24 hours. That is, without compensating the quality or the integrity of said project, relationship, etc.
So if I have to sacrifice something or someone, I am deeply sorry. But I have to do what I have to do.
And call me selfish, but I need to put my own needs first and foremost.
With that being said, I advise those truly altruistic people to try it sometime.
Know when to be selfish. And know when to be unselfish.