Personal Reflection

Life Is Too Short To Not Live And Love

I want to live a life I’m proud of living. I’m not perfect. My life isn’t either. But I try to appreciate what I have and who I am.

I feel as if I’ve grown up a lot this year. I’m also growing older.

The girl who started this blog in 2013 has come a long way. That being said, I still have a long way to go.

Some days, I look back and see how far I’ve come. I also look forward, knowing the road ahead won’t be an easy one.

Maybe I’m being melodramatic. It wouldn’t be the first time. But I feel like I’ve been given a second chance at life. And I don’t want to waste the time remaining.

Recently, I’ve been grappling with the following question: is it better to have loved and lost than never love at all?

As much as I hate losing, I’d rather love and lose than never love. Even if 10 months from now, I don’t love anymore. That’s OK. We grow. We outgrow too.

Life is too short to never love, to always hate. I think in order to live and love, we have to take risks. I’d like to be able to live fearlessly.

Maybe we lose what’s wrong in order to find what’s right.

Writing

Face Your Fears As A Writer

I like to think I am more fearless while writing as opposed to when I'm not. What a surprise.

I wouldn't compare myself to a chicken because I'm worse.

In real life, I hold myself back from doing things because I'm scared. And I wonder if my fears also faze me in creative pursuits such as blogging.

I know I can take bigger risks and push the envelope more so to speak. But I don't.

Is it because I'm terrified of the unknown? Am I afraid to depart from what I'm used to and do something different?

Yes. And yes.

Sometimes I feel as though I'm only taking small baby steps. It's still better than not taking any, never moving forward.

What gets me is the fact that at one point in my life writing was risky.

I didn't always write. I wasn't good at it. Even though I had no idea what my future held, I figured writing wouldn't work out for me.

So many years ago, I took a risk one day by picking up a pen and putting words on the page.

Now all I want is to create better content, tell greater stories. Tough to do so if I'm scared of failing or rejection.

Maybe your definition of risk is different from mine. That's fine.

But isn't it insane to imagine how the things you do now were a risk or a fear five years ago? That what you consider risky now might be totally safe, even routine a month from now?

I guess what I'm trying to get at is our fears change. Our definition of risk does too. Almost everything and everyone changes. Don't be afraid of change. Embrace it.

After all, you can live your whole live letting fear hold you back or you can show fear what you're made of.

Here's to conquering our fears. Face the page and take risks. You have more to gain than you have to lose.

Life is a journey, after all. Might as well enjoy where you are right now.

Doing more, doing better happens gradually. You don't make leaps and bounds in progress overnight. But every time you face your fear, you're improving yourself.

It's okay to be afraid. But it's not okay to let your biggest fear hold you back.

I don't have an easy solution. The best we can do as writers and human beings is to confront what's holding us back from reaching our full potential.

Dig deep. Find the strength you need to overcome your greatest insecurities.

Realize there's no feat quite like facing your demons and coming out victorious.

I raise my glass of water to all of you. Keep taking risks. Remember you're better than you fears.

Blogging

Talking About Themes

I changed the theme of my blog earlier this year.

In my opinion changing themes and tinkering with the appearance of my blog accomplishes a few things.

It creates change.

I’m not always the biggest fan of change. But there are good changes and bad ones. It’s great to also be in control of the change.

I have fun.

I enjoy playing with different themes and customizing it accordingly afterwards. I could spend forever doing this.

Procrastination happens.

Do I need to say more? Theme tinkering is my new fav way to put off doing schoolwork.

The new eliminates the old.

I’ve had my other theme for a while. I can’t say I was sick of it because I wasn’t. But it felt familiar, comfortable. And when I feel safe, I tend to play it safe. So I’m hoping this new look pushes me to create better content. At the very least, I hope to take more risks this year.

Maybe it’s time for you to change your blog theme. Or maybe you changed it recently.