Personal Reflection

School, Stress, And Stories

I’m a little stressed about school and life in general. Make that a lot. But when I look back on February, I’m proud of myself. Somehow, I survived. I even read and wrote every day during a short but insane month.

Recently, I’ve felt at peace while reading stories. Thank goodness books exist.

Because some days didn’t work out exactly the way I envisioned, I haven’t been as productive as I planned to be. Which explains why there’s a lot I need to do in March.

I bite off more than I can chew. Even though I don’t have to, I load my plate full.

Yes, I realize I have high expectations and a crazy imagination. Sometimes they work in tandem. Other times, I feel like my world is falling apart.

I’m doing my best. I know I say that all the time. I’m still a broken record. No surprise there.

Unfortunately, I feel like my best isn’t good enough, like I’ll never be enough.

But if I can get through this, I can get through anything.

Even though telling my story isn’t easy, I intend to stay strong. More than anything, I’d like to live on my own terms going forward.

School

What I Do When I Feel Overwhelmed

What do I do when I feel overwhelmed? I write about feeling overwhelmed in hopes I’ll feel better afterwards. But sometimes it makes me more stressed or anxious.

Some days, I’m not sure how I manage to balance my passions with my obligations. Even though I can’t optimize everything all the time, that doesn’t stop me from trying.

One time, I was telling my friend I didn’t know if I’d be able to get everything done. Bless her for saying I always do.

I have a lot of work and too little time. My confidence is a bit shaky right now. I blame my mastery over procrastination.

If only I had more time. But I don’t have 25 hours in a day, I can’t write my essays next year. So I just have to make the most of it.

Because I’m a stubborn human being, there are things I refuse to give up even with deadlines looming.

I like to think I can write relatively well. That said, I doubt I’ll ever let myself forget how hard writing is.

Working with words takes time, regardless of skill and talent.

It’s been a while since I’ve had this much school related stuff to handle. I’m kind of freaking out.

But that small voice in my head tells me I’ll get everything done to a decent extent. I’ve accepted the fact I can’t make everything perfect. So I’m covering my bases as much as possible.

In a perfect world, I’d ace everything. But my real world won’t end if I don’t. My ego might suffer, but it deserves a reality check once in a while.

Somehow I’ll survive. I need to make good decisions in the following weeks. I should be fine. If I make terrible choices, that’s on me. I can’t blame anybody. Besides, I reap what I sow. I also don’t reap what I don’t sow.

Personal Reflection

Summer, School, Stress

It’s that time of the year where I’m starting to feel stressed and concerned, anxious and nervous.

School starts soon. Soon as in my first day is tomorrow. And with it, my sanity disappears.

There’s a lot of grey area in my life. Unknowns. Not just with school but other things as well.

But I don’t want to worry. I’ve spent twenty years of my life worrying. That’s a hyperbolic statement obviously. I’m sure I didn’t care as much as a kid. I want to go back to being eight years old where my biggest concern was what I wanted to watch on TV after school.

I hope to turn my nervousness into excitement.

I’m trying to tell myself that everything will be fine because ultimately, life works out. Not always the way I intended or expected, but things have a funny way of turning out all right.

I think my problem is a tendency to second guess myself and my abilities. I underestimate what I’m able to do, what I’m capable of.

I’m an ambitious person by nature, which leads to more stress in my day to day life.

I’m writing right now because I’m too stressed to do anything else. And working with words usually helps me relax.

At first, it might seem counter-intuitive to write about your problems because you think about them more. But for me working through things lends me perspective. Often times I realize what I worry about will never come to pass because the odds of it happening are highly unlikely.

This post is all over the place. I know. It’s a reflection of my life right now.

I consider myself a clean, neat person who likes to be organized. I want to be on top of things. I want to be in charge, not let things take charge of me.

I’ll feel better once school starts, and I have a better feel for this semester. Besides, I’ve survived summer to school transitions in the past. I’ll survive this one.

I hope you’ll bear with me as I do my best to keep up with everything.

As much as I’d love to publish a post every day, I might miss a few every now and then. Don’t worry I’m human. I need days off just like everyone else too.