Personal Reflection · School

A Terrifying Transition

One of these days I’ll stop talking about my 20th birthday. Today isn’t one of those days.

To be honest, I feel good about where I am right now. Better than I have in a long time.

A while ago, I was talking to one of my high school teachers. Somehow my birthday in August came up. He made a point that stuck with me. I wish I remember his words exactly. Something like my having a birthday during an anxious, stressful time of the year. I couldn’t have agreed more.

I used to feel horrible in the mornings right before school. It’s not that I hated school inherently. But the thought of having to deal with people sent my heart pumping even faster than exercise.

My special day is and I suspect always will be a transitional time for me even after I graduate from university in two years. Yes, I’m assuming I’ll graduate. Allow me.

The memories I have of my childhood mornings are not fun or easy. I realize I can’t change the fact that I used to dread going back to school. But a part of me thinks it’s messed up that I and many other students feel anxious or afraid.

There’s a difference between not liking something and being terrified of it.

I felt terrible for so many reasons. My overactive imagination deserves a medal or trophy. More often than not, I scared myself because I thought of horrible situations. Most never came to pass.

When I think about school now, I’m not as worried or nervous. I’m not too afraid or scared. I am excited.

I’m looking forward to the rest of this upcoming academic year because I know that regardless of what happens, the sky won’t fall on my head. The ground isn’t going to open beneath my feet and swallow me whole.

I’ll be fine. The world won’t end. And if the sun will rise every day, so can I.

Personal Reflection

I Worry And Worry And Worry

I worry about everything.

Even though I know I worry too much, I can’t help it. I am a worrier. Always have been, always will be.

I worry and worry and worry. Sometimes to the point where it’s unhealthy.

Let me throw out a random, somewhat trivial example. Every time I send an email and don’t get a response, I worry that the receiver hasn’t gotten my email. Unfortunately, people tend to read my emails but for some reason, choose not to reply to them. (Thanks a lot. I wish you knew how stressed out this makes me feel.) I worry until I can somehow confirm they have indeed received my message.

It seems like all I ever do is worry.

Studying

How To Survive Exam Week: Stay In Tact And Alive

Voila! My foolproof guide for getting through the stressful exam period, which by the way, seems to plague us all at one point or another.

Although I have 3 consecutive exams coming up, I know that if I follow the below, I should be perfectly fine. Best of luck everyone!

1. Select a safe study space.

By safe, I mean distraction-free. Phones away, electronics off, parents gone, just you and a textbook. Think of it as a date with a binder, a textbook, and some notes.

2. Seek help.

If need be. Ask your teachers any questions you have, ask your peers for missing handouts, ask your parents to leave you alone.

3. Start studying.

How else are you supposed to pass your exams? And no, cramming is not synonymous with studying.

4. Skimp on the coffee, caffeine, cocaine, etc.

Cease all addictions until after exam period. Remember short term pain results in long term gain.

5. Stop to blow off steam.

Take a break, take a walk, take some time off between study sessions to avoid burnout.

6. Sorry you worked hard but possibly partied harder?

Prepare for the worse but expect the best. It’s not the end of the world. So embrace the inevitable? Albeit an F to you might be an A minus.

7. Celebrate!

Perhaps you should postpone step number seven until you see your report card.

One last thing before I go, I will do my best to continue posting on my social media accounts during this time but I can’t guarantee anything. Even so, I know I have the most understanding fans in the whole wide world. Thank you.