Personal Reflection

There Are So Many Things I Want To Do

Sometimes, I wish I could do everything, but that’s not possible. I only have 24 hours.

I used to be so stubborn about sticking to several daily habits.

Every now and then, some things have to give. I can’t do it all or do everything well. I’ve become more accepting of that fact nowadays.

I want to do many things and do them for a certain length of time or until I reach a specific goal. For example, I try to dance for one hour and read about 50 pages every day.

Nevertheless, I try not to let my current habits stop me from pursuing other opportunities.

I’m content with what I’ve done, yet I’ll continue to do more.

Life is a journey. My growth is ongoing, not a one-time event. So rather than beating myself up over a habit I didn’t do, I will appreciate all the things I did.

I journal before bed, and I’ve been tracking what I accomplish. That way, I can look back on a record of how I spend my time. Which is eye-opening to say the least.

I feel like human beings aren’t always the best at time management for a number of reasons. Tracking what I do and how long it takes me to complete a task has paid dividends. I now have a better understanding of when I should start an activity and when I can finish it.

Of course, I’m not perfect. Some days are good, others are bad. But knowing how I work allows me to plan ahead and account for worst-case scenarios.

Personal Reflection

Thinking About The Future

I can’t stop thinking about the future. More like worrying about the future.

I don’t feel ready for the real world. I have no idea what I’m doing now, much less what I’ll be doing after I graduate.

I thought everything would fall into place during my time in university. But the older I get, the less sure I am of anything.

I don’t intend to do more school. It doesn’t feel like the right path for me. I hope to work and write.

There’s a lot I want to do before I die. I’ll try to work full-time while pursuing my passions on the side.

Balancing everything is going to be tricky though. Ultimately, I need to decide what’s important to me.

I’ll make time, make sacrifices.

First things first, I should stop worrying and start working.

Even though money isn’t my biggest priority, it’d be nice to make enough to live a lifestyle I love.

Personal Reflection

I Need To Live A Little More

Or a lot more. Sometimes I get so caught up with doing things I think I should do that I don’t always do what I want.

I worry about everything. Moving forward, I will try to enjoy life more.

I make small problems a big deal all the time. I create problems when there aren’t any.

I wish I could loosen up. I wish small stuff didn’t bother me.

Somehow though life works out. As much as I enjoy writing and blogging, I hope to explore other interests as well.

To be honest, I should get out more too. It’s easy to stay at home all the time and get lost in fictional worlds. I kind of neglect the real one at times.

Nevertheless, lived experiences shape stories. So I ought to experience as much as I can. I’d like to say yes more often.

I’ve also come to realize when I fall for something or someone, I fall hard. I go full steam ahead. I give it 100 percent. But I risk burning myself out. I try to do too much, too fast.

I want to do a lot, but I’m human. I have limits.

Everything in moderation, right? I need to find a balance.

I hate wasting anything, especially time. It’s not something I can get back or make more of. I only have so many days.

In a way, I want to live like every day might be my last. I don’t want to take anything for granted. Then again, I also want to live like I have many days ahead of me. If only because I like to believe I’ll continue to grow and get better.

Editing · Writing

What’s The Easiest And Hardest Part Of The Creative Process?

What’s the easiest part of the creative process?

Nothing.

Making time to write. I may be in the minority here, but that’s because I don’t do a lot of other things. I don’t watch movies. I don’t play video games. So on and so forth.

I’m also stubborn, so I will fight anyone or anything that gets between me and my writing time.

With editing, the final round is much easier than the first.

I love having time to write and edit. So I try to give myself plenty of it.

What’s the hardest part of the creative process?

Everything.

For me, getting through the middle is the hardest.

Beginnings are fun and exciting. I love the honeymoon phase of any project.

But overcoming the halfway hump has been my biggest obstacle. If I can grind out the middle, the ending isn’t too bad.

I’m really bad at finishing stories. Like shockingly bad. Over the years, I’ve gotten worse rather than better. My patience is practically nonexistent nowadays.

When it comes to edits, starting is tough.

Hence why I have many written but unedited drafts.

I’ve been trying to figure out how to push myself through these hurdles.

I suppose nothing really comes easy. Words don’t write or edit themselves unfortunately.

Personal Reflection

What I’d Tell My 20 Year Old Self

Be kind to everyone.

You don’t know what others are going through. They might be having a bad day.

You’re stronger than you think.

Give yourself more credit than you do.

Listen to the voice in your head.

Don’t confuse it for the voices of society.

Take care of your body.

You only have one.

The world isn’t fair.

Sometimes you’re in the wrong place at the wrong time. That’s life.

Love without shame.

Fall in love with people and things.

Learn to forgive.

You may never forget, but you can forgive. Do it for your own sake and sanity.

Confront your demons.

You have to face your fears. You can’t live the rest of your life scared to death.

Embrace failure and rejection.

You will learn more from screwing up than from success.

You aren’t always right.

It’s OK to be wrong.

You are not defined by your past.

Likewise, your past doesn’t dictate your future. Your present doesn’t either.

You will get better.

Your situation will improve. Nothing lasts forever. You may not feel fine right now, but one day you will.

Writing

Advice On Breaking Into A Creative Industry

  • Do more than you have to, especially when you’re first starting out. Don’t just do the bare minimum and call it a day.
  • Always find people who will challenge you to improve. Never surround yourself around those don’t care if you stay stagnant.
  • Ask hard questions. Learn how to. And when you get an answer, listen. Sometimes you might not get an answer or you’ll get a no. That’s okay.
  • Don’t try to be perfect. The world won’t end if you mess up or make a mistake.
  • You’re not above anything or anyone. Kindness goes a long way.
  • Deliver on time. Fulfill your end of the deal. If you make a promise, keep it. If you can’t, don’t make one.
  • Chase down chances. No one’s going to hand you anything.
  • Be willing. You may not be the best or the brightest. But if you’re willing to put in the time and effort to get better, you’ll go a long way.
  • Show up and have something to show. Show up on time. Better yet, be early to events, meetings, etc.
  • Trust the process. It’s a long journey. Keep grinding. Trust your work ethic. Stop making excuses. Stop complaining. Put your head down and hustle. Do the work. Get it done.
  • Differentiate yourself. Embrace your differences. Stand out from the rest of the crowd. You’re not anyone else, so be the best version of yourself.
Personal Reflection

Believe In Your Work Ethic

There’s so much in this world that you can’t control. But you can control your work ethic.

Work hard. Work harder than anyone else you know.

Believe in your work ethic. Believe in yourself.

Put in the time. Pay your dues. You’ll be rewarded soon.

The journey you’re on is beautiful, but it’s also ugly. Keep going.

You will fall down, and when you do, get back up. Brush the dust off. Wipe the dirt away.

You will laugh. You will cry. The lows will make you appreciate the highs.

You’re not alone. You’re not on your own. Others have been there or are there right now.

Share your burdens. You don’t have to bear it all.

Make sure you continue to grow. There’s always more to learn.

You’re doing just fine. You’ll be all right.

Do what you want. Do what you love. Do things your way. Do things on your terms.

Love people, places. Don’t hate. Stop feeling ashamed for loving anyone or anything.

Never settle. Always remember you deserve the best.

Respect yourself first and foremost. You are who you are.

Your scars may fade, but they’ll never go away. You remember. They are a reminder.

Live the life you deserve to live. You don’t need anyone’s permission. You don’t need everyone’s approval.

Learn to forgive yourself for messing up. The world won’t end if you make a mistake. After all, your past doesn’t dictate your future. It gets worse before it gets better.

Walk a mile in other shoes, even and especially ones that don’t fit you.

Have hope. Be positive when negativity arises. Find your confidence when you lose it.

Dig deep. Go deeper. Believe in your work, your ethic, and your work ethic.

Writing

I’m Not A Good Novel Writer

I don’t have the patience. I used to once upon a time. But now I can’t seem to write a novel from start to finish.

It’s OK. Maybe I’m not meant to be a novelist. I’m still a writer. For now, I’ll stick to shorter stories and projects.

I’d still like to push and challenge myself. I want to create, so I will.

I’m currently working on a bunch of different things. Hopefully, one pans out.

When I look back at old manuscripts, I realize I’ve come along way. But there’s still a lot further for me to go.

Writing a novel is hard. I have so much respect for those who do.

When I first started, I had no idea what I was getting into. But I’m glad I picked up a pen and filled page after page.

Time would fall away. I could’ve stayed in that moment forever. I didn’t care about money or fame. The voices in my head didn’t stop me from writing. Neither did all the voices of society.

Remember what it was like to write when you were a kid. Think about all the fun you had.

Doubt is crippling. It can stop you from chasing and living your dreams. Don’t let it. You’re better than you think.

What are you scared of? What do you have to lose? Think of everything you stand to gain.