The Life Of A Student Writer

Being a student and a writer isn’t easy. When I’m not studying, I’m writing. Of course, I have to write a lot for university as well.

I continue to wonder how I’ll manage to balance both identities. Some days, I have no idea how I do everything I want to.

I can’t give up writing. I don’t think I ever will. If worse comes to worse, I may not write as much as I’d like. But a little is better than nothing at all.

I already know the next couple of months won’t be a breeze, but I’ve been in school for most of my life. I have also been creating for a long time. So I like to believe I’ll be fine.

Besides, some of my happiest memories come from telling stories.

Problem being there aren’t enough hours in the day. Why can’t we have twenty-five instead of twenty-four?

As of late, I’ve been thinking m about my writing career. My non-existent writing career. I stand corrected. My mind loves to worry about my life after graduation. Isn’t the unknown great?

Rest assured I’m not going anywhere. I won’t be making drastic changes anytime soon. But I will continue to progress day by day.

Right now it’s enough that I enjoy my writing sessions. I want to experiment more. I need to venture outside of my comfort zone.

As for school, I’ll do the best I can in my classes. I just have to time manage well.

I have plans I hope to execute in 2018. Of course, I’ll keep you posted if and when I publish or republish anything exciting.

A long time ago, I made the conscious choice to start writing. I’m not going back or giving up now.

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Getting Hit By A Car: The Day After

I’m sore. I’m tired. Everything hurts. But I’m alive.

I have a story to tell, many in fact. I’ll be talking about this incident for a long time.

To be honest, I need some time to work through things. I can’t ask you to stick around, but I’d appreciate it if you do.

So much of my life has changed, yet I want the core of who I am to stay the same.

I suspect I’ll be a broken record on repeat for a long time. Then again, I was a broken record before. I’m even more broken after.

Before and after. That’s how I think about my life now. Before the accident. After the accident.

I’m trying to take life one day at a time. I can’t bring myself to think too far ahead. I have a long road ahead of me. Hopefully.

The physical pain will heal faster than the mental and emotional. I’m not sure all the pain will ever truly go away. Still, it’ll fade with time.

I like to think I can get back on track again soon. If I miss a day of blogging, bear with me. If my posts become boring, read something else. Life’s too short.

Personally, I write to make sense of what I’m thinking or how I’m feeling. So I hope to look back one day and know I made it out okay.

As always, I can’t thank you all enough.

Who Says? | A Poem

Who says you need

A superhero to save the day

A knight to sweep you off your feet

A prince to make you a princess

A shoulder to cry on

A hand to hold close

A heart to love yours

A song to call ours

A dance to remember

A house to call home

A dream to share

A life to grow old

Who says you need?

You have what it takes

To make yourself happy

I Was Hit By A Car

I had the right of way while walking across the street. A car hit me on my right side, and I fell down on my left.

After spending about half an hour on the ground and about 30 minutes in an ambulance, I spent another 4 hours at the hospital.

Waiting so long gave me a lot of time to think. I even wondered whether I’d tell anyone about what happened.

I know I’ll remember this day for the rest of my life.

Everyone told me I’m okay. But I don’t feel okay. I don’t feel fine on the inside. My body hurts so much.

Still, I realize I’m lucky to be alive. I’m lucky to walk out of this with my life.

Wrong place, wrong time. Accidents happen.

I don’t want to be angry or bitter. I don’t want to cry any more than I already have. I do want to move on.

That being said, I feel scared. I’m terrified I won’t be the same. I have no idea how much this incident will affect me from now until the day I die.

I wish I could brush it all under the rug. Too bad I can’t.

February 6th, 2018 was the worst day of my life.

My Worst Enemy | A Poem

I used to lie awake at night

Wonder why I couldn’t sleep

I was my worst enemy

Hurt myself more

Than anyone else

Just wanted to belong

Struggled in silence

Grew strong enough

To stand tall

And finally believe

I can still recall

But those days are gone

Course Of A Life | A Poem

Some live

Others don’t

Scared

Let fear paralyze them

Life ends

So have the will

Nothing comes easy

The cost isn’t free

Can’t always comprehend

Adjust and accommodate

If you won’t

Someone else will

Every choice can change

The course of a life

In less than a second

Live For | A Poem

What are you waiting for?

When will you love more?

Who do you hold in your heart?

Whenever you fall apart?

Why can’t you see?

You have nothing to lose.

Why can’t you believe?

You get to choose.

Do you live like you’re surviving?

Do you live as if you’re dying?

Better Than Them | A Poem

Stares.

Beautiful?

No.

Fat. Strange. Ugly. Weird.

Everything in between.

Not pretty.

You’re never going to be enough for them.

Yet are you enough for yourself?

Hear it often,

start to believe lies,

That’s a part of life.

Can’t change everything,

but can change state of mind.

Seek peace,

find what’s right,

release the anger inside.

Let it go.

Leave it out.

You can do better,

they aren’t sorry.

You’re better than them,

always will be.

A Much Needed Self Care PSA

Any day is a good day for a self care public service announcement. I know I’ve talked about taking care of yourself in the past, but I’m talking about it again because I’m a broken record.

I don’t care what season it is (baseball or winter). Remember to prioritize your needs, whatever they may be.

Say no if you need to. Fun fact that isn’t fun but it is a fact: I said no to prom. If I can, you certainly can.

Don’t forget to eat and exercise. Do the things you want. Read a book. Listen to music. Make time for your hobbies, interests.

Let’s also talk about drinking and driving. To be honest, I do not enjoy either one individually.

That being said, if you ever feel pressured to drink and you hate it as much as I do, put your foot down. This is your body. You know yourself best. Do what you want, not what someone else wants.

Don’t feel up to drive? Then don’t force the issue. Take a bus, a cab. Call a friend or family member. Listen to your gut. It knows what’s up.

Self care isn’t just about luxury either. You don’t need to go to a spa or a saloon. You can take a bath or do your nails at home.

Sometimes it’s the little things that make a big difference like going to the gym in the morning, going to bed earlier at night, etc.

I hope you treat yourself well in 2018. Don’t forget you have one life. One body, one heart.

You may be busy with work or school or a number of other obligations, but you’re not too busy to care about yourself and look after your health.

22 Reminders For 2018

  1. You only have one life.
  2. Work hard but play harder.
  3. You can’t do everything.
  4. It’s okay to say no.
  5. Better to fail than never try.
  6. Less is more.
  7. There’s always room for improvement.
  8. Write for yourself, not someone else.
  9. Find your voice.
  10. Read what you want.
  11. Hone your art, your craft.
  12. Your health matters.
  13. Finish the projects you start.
  14. Your body and mind need exercise.
  15. You learn more from failure than from success.
  16. Research before you jump to conclusions.
  17. You’re allowed to have fun.
  18. Never feel guilty for pursuing your passions.
  19. You don’t need permission.
  20. Everyone has 24 hours in a day.
  21. You’re closer to the end than you realize.
  22. You are worth it.