Personal Reflection · Productivity

How I’m Trying To Live Better

I wanted to try to live better, so I’ve been doing the following:

Walk more. Specifically in the morning. When I was in school, I did a lot of walking. Even though I’m not taking nearly as many steps now, I hate the thought of sitting at home all day long. So now I walk and listen to a podcast at the same time.

Floss every night. It took a while to build this habit. For a time, I didn’t. Then I would but forget on occasion or get lazy. Now I’m finally flossing right after I brush my teeth.

Stay hydrated. I drank so little water in high school, I was probably close to being dehydrated half the time. I pay greater attention my liquid consumption these days, especially as the weather warms up.

Go to bed earlier. I think sleeping has been one of my biggest challenges. I have a hard time falling asleep and staying asleep. As I get busier, I find myself sleeping later. I have a morning routine, but I don’t have much of a night routine. Once upon a time, I slept earlier and woke up at a decent time. I’m doing my best to do that on a consistent basis.

Practice mindfulness. I’m not perfect, but I like living in the moment as much as possible. I put my phone away while I’m eating. I also check in with myself throughout the day when I have some time.

Even though I feel like I haven’t been that productive, I have been living a better life. And that’s something I’ll take every day.

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Writing

Tell The Story You’re Afraid To Tell

As a human being who is terrified of many things, I often use writing to deal with some of my fears. Obviously, that’s not the same as confronting them, but it’s a start.

That being said, I’ve been too scared to write about things I should. Or I’ll beat around the bush and skirt around the issue.

I don’t always write how I really feel.

So hopefully, I’ll listen to my own advice about telling the story I’m afraid to tell. I need to share it, if not with the world then at least with myself.

Perhaps I should do the same on this blog. There are many posts I haven’t written or published because of fear.

Then again, the posts I do manage to write turn out to be some of the best.

I can’t make any specific promises because I break everything, but I can make an effort to overcome my fear. Both on the page and in real life. I encourage all of you to do the same.

It won’t be easy. In fact, that’s hard work. But I like to believe the story you’re scared to death of sharing needs to be told.

I don’t want to live in fear, and I especially don’t want to write in fear.

To be honest, I’ve been holding back. I know I can do better. So what if I fail? So what if I make mistakes? I can learn. I will grow.

I censor, I filter. Sometimes I avoid writing what I think because I worry about what others will think.

But I don’t write for others. I write for myself. I have an audience of one. That girl is hard enough to please on a good day.

I don’t want to make my life even harder because I’m afraid to write. I won’t let fear get the best of me.

Personal Reflection

Life Is Too Short To Not Live And Love

I want to live a life I’m proud of living. I’m not perfect. My life isn’t either. But I try to appreciate what I have and who I am.

I feel as if I’ve grown up a lot this year. I’m also growing older.

The girl who started this blog in 2013 has come a long way. That being said, I still have a long way to go.

Some days, I look back and see how far I’ve come. I also look forward, knowing the road ahead won’t be an easy one.

Maybe I’m being melodramatic. It wouldn’t be the first time. But I feel like I’ve been given a second chance at life. And I don’t want to waste the time remaining.

Recently, I’ve been grappling with the following question: is it better to have loved and lost than never love at all?

As much as I hate losing, I’d rather love and lose than never love. Even if 10 months from now, I don’t love anymore. That’s OK. We grow. We outgrow too.

Life is too short to never love, to always hate. I think in order to live and love, we have to take risks. I’d like to be able to live fearlessly.

Maybe we lose what’s wrong in order to find what’s right.

Personal Reflection

What Do You Want Out Of Life?

I want to be happy. I hope I’m able to do what I want to do.

My health is important to me. But sometimes I do things at the expense of my well-being.

Even though I worry so much about so many things, writing helps. When there’s nothing to stress over, my mind makes something up. At least getting my thoughts and feelings on the page takes some of the weight off my shoulders.

This year has been tough for reasons out of my control. So I’ve tried hard to focus on what I can control.

Word by word, day by day is my motto. I don’t want to get too far ahead of myself. Sometimes though I can’t stop thinking about the far future.

I like to believe everything will work out somehow. The pieces will fall into place eventually.

For now, I want to concentrate on the present moment. I need to enjoy each day.

I love what I do because I love the act of doing them. It’s the process, the journey that matters. Not the numbers, not the results.

While I don’t know everything, I know I want to learn. Even if it terrifies me. I want to learn more. I want to better myself as a human being.

I’m always learning. I love teaching myself. Going at my own pace, putting in a little bit of work every day.

Personal Reflection

I Have No Motivation To Do Anything

I don’t feel all that motivated right now. I’m in a bit of a slump.

Obviously, there are highs and lows with just about everything in life. I’ve been trying to climb back up since the accident.

It was like my world got rocked upside down. I’ve sort of reverted back to old ways, which isn’t a bad thing in and of itself.

I’m also in a weird transitional time in my life. But I’m ready to move forward and look ahead.

Lately, I’ve been making more time for myself. I spent many hours thinking. Maybe it’s time to act now.

I’m not sure how to describe my current state. I’m better physically, but I’m also more present mentally than I have been in the past. I like to believe that’s a good sign.

In spite of everything, I’m excited to see for what’s next.

I can’t wait to read and review the books on my to be read shelf.

I’m dancing, stretching, and exercising better.

I hope to transcribe a ton of blog posts.

I will send my work into the world, regardless of how many rejections I get.

Baseball is in full swing. Beware all my bad jokes or puns.

By the end of 2018, I don’t want to look back and think it’s the year I got hit by a car. I want to be able to say I accomplished my goals. I refuse to be defined by what happened to me.

Writing

Keep Calm And Write On

May has been a struggle to say the least.

I like to think I’m nearing the end of many storms. I’ve weathered some bad ones lately. Or maybe this is wishful thinking on my part.

I care too much about the wrong things and sometimes I don’t care enough about the stuff I should.

The older I get, the more cynical I become.

As this month stretches on, I’m going to do my best to stay patient with myself and everybody else.

I need to relax more. Sometimes I get so stressed and worked up.

Life is hard. Writing is too, but sometimes I’d rather be in a different world than this one.

For some reason, everything seems so much worse than it is. Perhaps I’m overthinking.

At least I’ve been writing well. But there’s still a long way to go on that front.

From here on out, I intend to keep calm and write on.

Blogging

Why Blogging Is Better Than Dating

I may be single, but I’m in a serious relationship with my blog.

You call the shots. Do what you want, wherever you want? Don’t have to wait for anyone or anything? Free reign over any and every decision? Sign me up.

You can take breaks. If you’re busy, you can put blogging on hold. Mow imagine telling that a boyfriend or girlfriend you want to put your relationship on hold.

You make your own happiness. Never rely on someone to make you happy. Why would you when there’s an always reliable blog in your life.

Your blog will always be there for you. Unlike human beings who are too busy living their own lives. Their loss.

You confront a blank page, not a real person. It’s the best and worst thing about being a blogger. There will always be a brand new post waiting for you in the wings.

Blogging is, without a doubt, better than dating.

Personal Reflection

Celebrate The Small Things In Life

It’s important to celebrate the small things in life, especially on hard days.

I have a few daily goals: reading, writing, blogging, dancing, and journaling. They’re small acts that make a big difference.

Obviously, doing something every day isn’t easy. Even more so when those things aren’t mandatory.

But I want to create. I need creative outlets, so I can express myself. Or else I’d lose my mind.

At this point, I feel odd not sticking with my habits every day. Because I’m so used to my routines, I don’t always realize how much progress I’ve made.

Sometimes I forget to celebrate small wins. But they often lead to bigger and better victories.