Personal Reflection

Life Is Too Short To Not Live And Love

I want to live a life I’m proud of living. I’m not perfect. My life isn’t either. But I try to appreciate what I have and who I am.

I feel as if I’ve grown up a lot this year. I’m also growing older.

The girl who started this blog in 2013 has come a long way. That being said, I still have a long way to go.

Some days, I look back and see how far I’ve come. I also look forward, knowing the road ahead won’t be an easy one.

Maybe I’m being melodramatic. It wouldn’t be the first time. But I feel like I’ve been given a second chance at life. And I don’t want to waste the time remaining.

Recently, I’ve been grappling with the following question: is it better to have loved and lost than never love at all?

As much as I hate losing, I’d rather love and lose than never love. Even if 10 months from now, I don’t love anymore. That’s OK. We grow. We outgrow too.

Life is too short to never love, to always hate. I think in order to live and love, we have to take risks. I’d like to be able to live fearlessly.

Maybe we lose what’s wrong in order to find what’s right.

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Productivity

How I Prioritize And Time Manage

I don’t. But I try my best.

For me, I prioritize what’s urgent. I also prioritize what’s important. Well, I attempt to anyway.

Obviously, I care about my own health and happiness. Anything that contributes to either is a priority.

I like fun too. Because all work and no play would make me a dull girl.

Sometimes I don’t want to think. Instead, I let myself relax and recharge.

I manage my time because I want enough hours to do some of the things I enjoy. But making time isn’t always easy.

Blogging

The Evolution Of This Blog

In 2013, I was a naive fifteen year old on WordPress.

Today, I’m so happy I went out on a limb one evening and started this blog.

Becoming a blogger has made me more keen to learn. As a result, I now have more interests than ever before.

Along the way, I’ve felt the need to stick with the status-quo. But I want to push the envelope, challenge myself, and improve. I can’t improve if I don’t move. That’s my motto literally and figuratively.

I read tons of advice about how to blog. But to be honest, I like learning what works and what doesn’t on my own.

This blog will continue to evolve as I grow and change. It may not always seem like it, but I’m doing my best. I know you are too.

There are so many posts I want to write, projects I want to tackle. I’m a little limited in terms of time, money, etc. That being said, I try to take baby steps every day.

More than anything, I hope the next five years will bring more progress.

I’m not perfect. I never will be. My goal isn’t perfection. It’s consistent practice.

As always, thank you for being part of my evolution as a blogger and as a human being.

Personal Reflection

I Have No Motivation To Do Anything

I don’t feel all that motivated right now. I’m in a bit of a slump.

Obviously, there are highs and lows with just about everything in life. I’ve been trying to climb back up since the accident.

It was like my world got rocked upside down. I’ve sort of reverted back to old ways, which isn’t a bad thing in and of itself.

I’m also in a weird transitional time in my life. But I’m ready to move forward and look ahead.

Lately, I’ve been making more time for myself. I spent many hours thinking. Maybe it’s time to act now.

I’m not sure how to describe my current state. I’m better physically, but I’m also more present mentally than I have been in the past. I like to believe that’s a good sign.

In spite of everything, I’m excited to see for what’s next.

I can’t wait to read and review the books on my to be read shelf.

I’m dancing, stretching, and exercising better.

I hope to transcribe a ton of blog posts.

I will send my work into the world, regardless of how many rejections I get.

Baseball is in full swing. Beware all my bad jokes or puns.

By the end of 2018, I don’t want to look back and think it’s the year I got hit by a car. I want to be able to say I accomplished my goals. I refuse to be defined by what happened to me.

Writing

Common Fears Writers Face

The fear of no one reading your story. You spent 3,682 hours, 41 minutes, and 9 seconds on one story. But not a single soul will see it. At least your eyes will look upon a masterpiece.

The fear of no one liking your stories. Or worse, everyone hating it.

The fear of failure. Rejection after rejection after rejection.

The fear of success. Some people have a scary definition of what it means to be successful.

The fear of fear. Of course, it’s both a verb and a noun.

The fear of no fear. Imagine not being afraid of anything. Isn’t that terrifying?

The fear of letting others down. Sorry mom.

The fear of letting yourself down. You’re probably your biggest critic.

The fear of losing everything. Especially your dignity.

The fear of losing nothing. Because you don’t have anything to lose.

The fear of losing friends. Then again, you can’t lose what you don’t have in the first place.

The fear of making enemies. It’s like going through high school all over again.

The fear of wasting your time. It’s precious.

The fear of wasting your life. You only get one after all.

Always write out of love. Never write out of fear.

Personal Reflection

Make Time For Yourself

You have to make time for yourself. It’s okay to look out for your best interests. It’s all right to take all the time you need.

Do what you need to do, whatever that means for you.

There’s nothing wrong with being alone, being by yourself.

We’re more connected than ever before thanks to cell phones and social media. Sometimes it’s hard to put technology down and not stare at a screen all the time. That being said, human connection is necessary.

You’re a human being. Believe it or not, I’m human too.

You aren’t a machine. You need to interact and communicate with others. But know your limits. Remember them when you need to put your foot down.

Don’t be afraid to listen to your heart and your head. Because at the end of the day, you have to make yourself happy.

People respect you if you respect yourself first. At least, the people who respect themselves will. It’s tough though. But you live and learn. That’s how life goes.

Some people might not understand. Don’t worry about them. Worry about yourself.

Do what sets your soul on fire, even if you were the last person on earth.

What’s something you look forward to? What’s something you love more than anything else in the world?

Never let excuses run or ruin your life. You only have so much time.

Hold onto your values, your beliefs. Only change for the better.

Make time for yourself, so you can take care of yourself.

Writing

Why I Hate Outlining

Outlining isn’t writing. I’m a writer, not an outliner. Besides, I love writing, not outlining.

It drives me insane. Outlining might as well be the bane of my existence.

Outlining takes time. I could spend those hours writing instead. Besides, we only have 24 hours every day. I can’t afford to spend half of it on an outline.

An outline doesn’t guarantee anything. When my plans fall through, I’m back at square one.

My characters take one look at my outline and proceed to do the exact opposite. I bet they laugh at me behind my back too.

It requires a certain mood. I almost never want to outline.

Outlining isn’t fun. At least writing is some of the time.

I don’t follow my outlines. The one time I did, I didn’t finish my novel. That manuscript has been rotting away for years now.

It can lead you down rabbit holes. You might not recognize you need to be saved until it’s too late.

Outlining doesn’t work for everybody. Exhibit A: me.

Some teachers want you to hand in outlines. I wrote my essay first and then created an outline later. Because I’m a rebel.

I dread the thought of outlining almost as much as I do driving. You just never know what might happen.

Outlining puts off writing. We all know writers are masters at procrastinating.

Outline for too long and you have one day to write and edit your final essay. Good luck.

It can be inefficient. Which is unproductive. As a student writer, I need all the productivity I can get.

Outlining will never compare to writing. I’d rather edit than outline. What has the world come to? I’ll pick the lesser of two evils, thank you very much.

I’m sort of, kind of joking. Seriously, I don’t hate outlining that much.

Personal Reflection

Walking, Thinking, Writing

I’ve been doing a lot of walking, thinking, and writing lately.

To be honest, I’m someone who doesn’t know what I think until I write. Writing helps me work out my thoughts. But thinking by itself is always welcome as well.

I do a lot of thinking whilst walking. Come to think of it, whilst is a great word that I don’t use often enough.

Whenever I feel stuck, I like walking around my house. I enjoy being alone with my thoughts.

Sometimes I write after a walk. I often have an easier writing session. Easy in the sense that the words come to me.

I always try to put what’s on my mind onto the page.

Life makes me feel pulled and pushed in every direction. So I appreciate being able to step back, being able to think.

Besides, we don’t have to be doing something every second of every day.

I’m all for action, acting. But I’m also a thinker as well. Having time to think just doesn’t happen unless we set aside time for it.

Don’t get me started on overthinking. But I encourage you to ponder or wonder.

If you could do one thing and only one thing right now, what would it be?